Still Away

so as thought it weren't obvious I've missed a few days bloging my trip. To recape suck, suck, suck...... And now we're at sea world.
Today, sea world sucked worse then most the disney parks mostly bc it was 93f and humid as hell. But also due in part atleast to the mass of under welment. It was all so......blah. Atleast Disney had a couple kick ass rides. On a plus side I got attacked by a polar bear which ripped my new shorts LOL ;)
So probly not going home till Sunday but I'm gonna push to go home tomorrow if I can; I just want this trip to be over like NOW!!

On to something mildly unrelated; why am I such a whore??? I'm a whore in so many ways I can barely keep up as to why. Let's start with attention ...I'm huge attention whore I just love people seeing and listening to me so much so I'm on edge with my gf cause I feel like I'm not getting enough; I push and push and get no where. Next and last we have a man whore, I'm this most likely due to my first attention whoreage. I like women wanting me as a result I flirt my ass of to any and every girl who'll listening. I guess I'm not so much asking why as much as I'm saying do I have a problem.

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I Now Sit Awake

It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep... Acctually scratch that it's 4am and I can't sleep. Most likly because I'm an insomniac but more likely because I can't stop thinking.
One quandry( yes I know it drive you crazy) I can't seem to get out of my head is; did I blow up today because of her or me? Basicly today I just exploded into a frenzyed arrgument with my mother in the middle of epcot as to why?? Well I'd like to say it was over somthing life or death but the reality is it was just over where we were going to eat.
With that in mind I just wonder what it was that set us off. I mean don't get me wrong it was hot but temperures don't set tempers that high. So why did I do of and why now? I've had plenty of chances that I avoided. My only guess is everything allined in it's favor. But in the end it doesn't really matter all that much does it? So why do I dwell? LOL here I go again.....

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Disney Day 2

So any ways as the title suggest it's day 2 down here at Disney and things could be better. I didn't post day one because frankly it was pretty straight forward the usual I'm up and hyper and no one can keep up.
As for today at epcot more of the same which may make you ask why blog today right?
Put simply it's accured to me maybe it isn't the park that sucks, as much as the people. I mean my gf is fun the rest of them are just ruining it for me. Not to mention like the only part of epcot I was hyped about we're skiping. And ironicly it's the food.
Is it odd that I'm a stuborn ass just for the pricuple of things. Especally when it's my mother.

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Made It

Well we just made it to Disney sort of more like a hotel outside Disney cause we can't check in till tomorrow; and though tempers started out on high they've began evening and though Alicia gives me a little hope this week might be kinda fun. The thunder storm weather report makes me a little bumbed. Not to mention missing my closes friend makes me want to be home that much more.

That's all for now ill keep you posted probly daily through the week thanks to the iPhone.

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First time.... sort of

Hello; this is my first time Blogging in like 2 years. put simply a lot of things in my life balanced out, and because my blog was just a tool to let out my "Hyde Side;" i really had very little use for it once things came under control. With that said my life has start to rip apart again into the all too familiar "Jekyll" and "Hyde" parts; and after reading a friends blog and my old post i just felt like it was time to start again. With that said shall we begin.....

As i said my life is torn not for what i "should" and "do" do; but more so in the way i feel about more or less everything. When most people admit to "Jekyll and Hyde" syndrome its usually based on one particular problem, one issue; I on the other hand have a tendency to rip my life in twain. Separating the Morally Easy(Jekyll) from the Morally Ambiguous(Hyde). in my very short 20 year I've done it twice and i now stand on the edge of what looks like number 3. though this was morally frustrating in the past never has it been quite this bad; because the last two times i had no expectation for the out come. However twice it has gone the same way i fight Hyde in the face of moral ambiguity; untill eventually what he wants becomes morally easy and i submit. Now that i can finally look at the situation and for see that out come, well what would you do???

The real difficulty in all this lay in a question that most are asked daily "what do you want?" the issue with this quandary is scale. When making dinner plans and someone asks "what do you want?" little if any pressure is applied. However when that same question is applied to college and as to what to do with your life; all the sudden four simple words become the key to ones future. Beyond that it would seem such a simple question for forever require a simple answer and yet nothing could be farther from the truth. 

i say all this to alleviate my head for with many people its difficult to say out loud what's inside for fear they won't understand; i've found women especially are so quick to draw conclusion that rarely do they take time to hear what you say and attempt to understand. Of course i mean no offense but judgement is in human nature and to those who say "i dont judge people;" i say if you didn't you would never turn a guy down for a date, that is assuming you're female lol.

from the looks of the post thats enough "Hyde Time" for one day plus i have to pack for Florida if i can i'll keep you posted; i'm not exactly excited. 

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