to know ones self

for the past few days ive been lost in what i can only describe as "ME." in this lost of sanity ive come to a few conclusions which i feel i need to write out just so i can look at it in a few months and laugh at my emo-ness. that said everything ive found will likely never come to play in my life because no matter how much i dont want to i cant help but care about others but im going to say it anyway.

1) Never risk your dignity even if you have none it hurts to loose it, to take a chance on something real is to take a risk on the unknown, just like roulette. no way in hell you're gonna win

2) Do the heartless thing because to have a heart is to have a target to aim for.

3) Be ready to disappoint even those you care about because if you are ready maybe you can hurt less

i say these things not for pitty in fact help and pitty is the last thing i need what i need is to start taking advantage of those around me and i fully intend to. is it wrong? YES do i care??? FUCK NO. All i have left is being truly bad and why not i just hurt people any way. and if my morals start to flair then atleast the pain of what i do will let me know im still alive. 

~say hello to Mr.Hyde starting NOW.....;D